Weight Loss Journey. Part 2. The Breakthrough.
As no amount of diets/books/meditations/pills/workouts/supplements seemed to work I arrived at the point where I felt helpless.
And maybe that was the key…
I remember telling my mom how hard it was for me not to be able to lose weight.
She suggested that maybe I just have to accept the way I AM and start loving my stomach, instead of hating it all the time, because it’s lovely.
Then, a breakthrough thought came to my mind.
The Breakthrough
How can I consider myself to be a person who loves the self if I only accept the “good” parts of me?
If I truly loved myself → I would accept my stomach as it is → not hating it all the time → not pressing it to be smaller → it is not loving at all.
If I truly loved myself → I would accept my body as it is.
If God loves me (and I believe it to be true) → It loves me how I am → It offered my body as a gift full of love → It was happy & excited to offer me life in this specific body → It doesn't wait for me to be skinny to love me.
If I constantly complain about “that gift” & try to change it by any means → I don’t love and accept myself & I don’t appreciate the gift.
If I truly loved myself → I would support myself to be healthy → and not press my body to be skinny.
If I truly loved myself → I would approach the way I eat with kindness → not with rules & expectations.
If I truly loved myself → I would be more understanding, caring, accepting & supportive towards myself.
I started to cry. I felt the relief. In that moment I allowed myself to JUST BE and not fight with myself anymore.
I hugged my stomach and I accepted that
it is my stomach, it is exactly as it was supposed to be, I accept it, and I don’t need to change it.
That’s it. I will live with it. And maybe, I will even try to love it.
The Antidote
Later on, I understood my body was swollen and growing because it was desperately calling for my attention, my love, my care, and my acceptance. In return - it was given hate, pressure, expectations, disappointment, and anger.
The more I was not loving it → the more it was growing → the more I was hating it → the more it was growing → and so on.
Until - it felt seen. Accepted. Taken care of. And eventually - loved.
After that breakthrough - I got rid of all the clothes that were waiting for the time until I was skinny again.
I just accepted how I looked and was no longer waiting to lose weight.
So simple - yet so difficult.
All the actions that happened after this day - did eventually lead me to lose almost 10kg.
BUT!
They were not coming from the need to lose weight.
They came from acceptance, care, support, and trust.
I explain those actions specifically in the next blog post. →
Weight. Heavy.
Why is it heavy?
What do you carry on you?
It is not your body that is heavy.
The thoughts/words/emotions/memories are the weight.
Do not lose your body weight. Lose everything around you that is making you down.
